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Ada Lovelace and Alan Turing: the denial of gender and the escape into the rational mind

Ivo Quartiroli — Tue, 27 Apr 2010 11:13:03 +0000

Ada King, countess of Lovelace (1815–52), was a brilliant English mathematician. She is often called the first programmer in history. She wrote programs for Charles Babbage’s analytical engine, even foreseeing the scope of algorithms to process data beyond numerical calculations, which no one had yet begun to conceive. A programming language named Ada has been developed in her honor.

Ada Lovelace was the daughter of the romantic poet Lord Byron. He and his social entourage were disappointed with her gender and he soon separated from both her mother and England. Byron died when Ada was nine.

Ada’s mother arranged the girl’s life to avoid any contact with either her father or his attitude toward life. She considered Lord Byron insane and, worrying her daughter might share it, educated Ada in mathematics from a very early age, even through prolonged health problems constrained the girl to bedrest. Ada Lovelace died at 36 from uterine cancer and requested to burial next to Lord Byron, finally joining the father she never knew.

Alan Turing (1912–54), English mathematician and cryptoanalyst, had enormous influence on computer science. His Turing machine incorporated important advances in the formalization of algorithms and computability. Turing conceived the Turing Test which defined a “thinking machine” as one that fooled a person into believing s/he was having a conversation through a keyboard with a human being in a remote location. During the Second World War his cryptoanalysis was fundamental in breaking the German ciphers, contributing to the defeat of Nazism.

In his era, homosexuality in England was subject to criminal prosecution. In 1952, after admitting to having sex with a young man, Turing was given the choice between incarceration or a treatment with female hormones (“to reduce the libido”). How absurd that after helping save his country from Nazism, it treated him as a criminal. In 1954, Turing died of poisoning. In 2009, British Prime Minister Gordon Brown apologized on behalf of the British government for the way he was treated.

Jaron Lanier, in “One Half a Manifesto,” commented on the tragic death of Turing in these terms:

Turing died in an apparent suicide brought on by his having developed breasts as a result of enduring a hormonal regimen intended to reverse his homosexuality. It was during this tragic final period of his life that he argued passionately for machine sentience, and I have wondered whether he was engaging in a highly original new form of psychological escape and denial; running away from sexuality and mortality by becoming a computer.

I think the denial is deeper than the sexuality issue: It has to do with the denial of anything but the “pure” Cartesian mind, including the body and sensuousness. With both pillars of contemporary IT we see how a denial of sexual identity, the sensuous and non-rational world shaped their lives. Lovelace’s gender was rejected by her father, while her mother pushed her toward a purely rational life. The law repressed Alan Turing’s homosexuality, as he likely did himself.

The mind is regarded as the most important human feature and the identification with it is so deep that we want to reproduce it on machines, becoming creators in our turn. We even have developed a test to ascertain the “intelligence” of a machine.

Joseph Weizenbaum in 1964 created Eliza, an interactive program that simulated a Rogerian psychotherapist. Weizenbaum himself was surprised and concerned to see that users were taking its words seriously. While the mind can surely be simulated, this tell us nothing about what’s going on inside. However it does underscore how much the mind can be fooled and how we can actually behave mechanistically.

The Digitally Divided Self

Ivo Quartiroli — Tue, 15 Sep 2009 18:21:41 +0000

There’s an unusual but apparent alliance between two philosophies which are barely aware of and rarely come into contact each other, which conjure against the physical reality and the body. The first “philosophy” is represented by what have variously been called Cyberspace, Technopoly, Cyburbia and other names.

I prefer to define it as “The Digitalization of Reality,” wherein more and more human activities are being translated into bytes. Work, communication, media, entertainment, friends, dating, sexuality, culture, shopping, politics and causes are among the growing number of human needs that have gone digital.

While the Internet was something which earlier we mostly visited, now we are inhabiting the virtual worlds full-time and engineer them according to our mental projections. The Cartesian dream of a mind without a body has almost been fulfilled (even though in his old age Descartes, in Passions of the Soul, affirmed that “the soul is jointly united to all the parts of the body”).

This separation has a long history of Western thought starting from the Judeo-Christian separation between body and soul up to people like the transhumanist Hans Moravec, the artificial intelligence researcher Marvin Minsky, or the singularity guru Raymond Kurzweil who want to download the biological human mind to a safer mechanical medium in order to achieve nothing less than immortality.

Technology itself is less and less “embodied” and physical. Technology is going toward Wi-Fi, Bluetooth and various wireless ways of communicating and even wire-free charging for devices. We have made even hi-tech tools withdraw physically from each other.

Weizenbaum, more than 30 years ago in Computer Power and Human Reason, described a typical computer programmer thus:

Bright young men of disheveled appearance, often with sunken glowing eyes, can be seen sitting at computer consoles, their arms tensed and waiting to fire their fingers, already poised to strike, at the buttons and keys on which their attention seems to be as riveted as a gambler’s on the rolling dice…Their food…coffee, Cokes, sandwiches. If possible, they sleep on cots near the computer…Their rumpled clothes, their unwashed and unshaven faces, and their uncombed hair all testify that they are oblivious to their bodies and to the world in which they move.

Brenda Laurel, designer of human computer interaction, notices differences in gender:

We have a class of people we call nerds who are radically uncomfortable with their bodies and their sexuality…When men talk about virtual reality, they often use phrases like “out-of-body experience” and “leaving the body.” These guys are not talking about out-of-body experiences in the way that some Eastern mystic or Peruvian Indian would. They are talking about it in the sense that if you slap a screen over your eyes you won’t have to see air pollution…When women talk about VR they speak of taking the body with them into another world. The idea is to take these wonderful sense organs with us, not to leave our bodies humped over a keyboard while our brain zips off down some network (Susie Bright, Sexual Reality, San Francisco: Cleis Press, 1992).

What was an attitude confined to technicians and nerds became “mainstream,” where most people are in front of a computer, TV or mobile screen for most of their waking lives, distancing themselves from a felt connection with their bodies, living in a purely mental world. Alexander Lowen, in Joy, wrote that in the more than 50 years since he began studying the human condition, he has seen a general deterioration in the bodies of the people who come to him; the bodies are less energized, less integrated and less attractive than those of the patients he used to see earlier. He writes that the old-fashioned hysterical patient that Freud wrote about is almost never seen. While the hysterical person couldn’t handle his feelings, the schizoid individual nowadays – dissociated from his body and living predominantly in his mind – just hasn’t many.

If technology is conducive toward the disappearance of physical reality, there’s a second philosophy which seems allied to the same goal. Several mystical traditions and spiritual teachers of the past and present consider physical reality as a dream – maya – as something to overcome in order to expand our awareness and connect with our deeper soul and with the ultimate. Physical reality is then something to be abandoned while advancing on our path toward spiritual enlightenment.

Shri Ramakrishna, in L’Enseignement de Ramakrishna, said that when a man becomes crazy for God, he becomes unconscious even of his body. Taking Chaitanya Deva as an example, Ramakrishna said that he “many times fell on the ground. He didn’t have any more hunger, or thirst, or even become sleepy. He completely lost the consciousness of his body”.

In Ramakrishna’s description of God’s crazy state we can see some similarities with Weizenbaum’s programmers. Apparently. Mystics abandon the body/mind in order to reach what is beyond the mind, while our society has relegated the body to a marginal role in order to give the mind the superior and controlling role.

Technologically-oriented people and mystics have another common point in saying that the world is unreal, an illusionary state. The former involve neurophysiology and psychology, while mystics talk about their first-hand experience in having reached a state where a broader awareness comes to the forefront, not depending on our body/mind filters any more.

But while virtual reality disconnects us from our bodies to give priority to the mind (considered the ultimate attainment of human beings), the spiritual paths toward awareness need to know, feel and live in the body as a source and object of knowledge before going beyond mind and body. In the spiritual path the body is seen as a whole body/mind entity, observed by a broader awareness. In that journey, both body and mind might be lost for a while, to be retrieved later. David Cooper in The Grammar of Living wrote: “We have to lose our heads to enter our bodies. There is a time for minds, a time to leave our minds and a time to recover them.”

The body in the spiritual path is a fragile bridge toward the ultimate which has to be crossed with respect and care, sensing and feeling it without rushing to overcome it, otherwise we risk falling into the waters, losing our minds prematurely as well. Some religions discouraged or prohibited a close meeting with our bodies, particularly in the monotheistic traditions such as Judaism, Christianity and Islam. Being far from the sinful body was supposed to bring us closer to the divine incorporeal entity. But mystics – even the ones who came from those traditions – could not escape experiencing the body in its fullness.

The body can’t be ignored in our will to expand our awareness. Almaas (the pen name of Hameed Ali) expressed the connection with the body in the spiritual search for the truth in these terms:

As we get more present in our bodies, in our bellies, we can get closer to our essence which is truth, which is what makes us know what is true, what is false, not from logical deduction, or from the unconscious. You just know. You are close to that subtle sense which is truth. (A.H. Almaas. Elements of the Real in Man (Diamond Heart Book One). Diamond Books. Berkeley. 1987)

Eckhart Tolle expressed it in similar terms:

The most powerful anchor for staying present is to inhabit the body. That means to have some of your attention in the inner energy field of the body – to sense, to feel the animating presence that gives life to the body, which ultimately is consciousness itself. The physical body is a temporary expression of that consciousness, but the essence of it is the consciousness itself. So to connect with the physical body, and even as you perceive the world and interact with the world, to have some attention in the inner energy field and to feel the aliveness that is there in every cell and every organ as a single feeling. You are then rooted in your body, which becomes the anchor for staying present and for staying out of the mental noise (from Lynn Marie Lumiere and John Lumiere-Wins, The Awakening West, Oakland: Clear Visions Publications, 2000).

Feeling our presence and connection with our bodies works as well as the needed grounding for keeping our minds healthy in a technology-saturated disembodied schizoid condition. “The person who does not act in reality and only acts in fantasy becomes himself unreal,” wrote Ronald Laing in 1959, based on the observations of his patients, in The Divided Self (London: Tavistock Publications, 1959), while Marshall McLuhan wrote that, “By continuously embracing technologies, we relate ourselves to them as servomechanisms”. Through our technological race toward the digitalization of reality, we risk abandoning our bodies and split our minds as well, without finding anything superior for our soul to join, as is conversely contemplated in the Eastern spiritual paths.

There’s an echo of a deeper truth in the desire of replacing reality with a virtual one: the truth that the world as we see it is not the whole story. But through virtual worlds we might bend the distorting lenses of the mind even more, creating a further layer of illusionary maya. Instead of liberating ourselves from the deceptive mind, we liberate the mind from the “restrictions” of the body, coming closer to fulfilling the Cartesian dream. But the mind without a felt connection with the body doesn’t have support from our embodied intelligence and becomes compulsive in chasing every small bit of information which appears in our already-scattered attention, transforming our mind in servomechanisms of technology. Is it not a case that meditation techniques reinforce our concentration ability, usually giving attention to a part of our body or to our sensations.

However, even without any virtual technological life, the unreal can’t be avoided. Lila, the divine game played by the universal consciousness, has been playing the hide-and-seek game much before the human mind created a new hi-tech version of the game. Many spiritual teachers say that we live in a dream state, looking at reality filtered by the veil of maya which gives the mind many layers of conditionings. Perhaps lila is having fun in hiding even deeper, adding another layer by encouraging the collective mind in building its own virtual representations of reality. Ultimately, lila will become tired of playing and will reveal the true nature of reality, maybe through apparently hiding even more.

“To consider Maya, a deeper Maya is needed,” said Swami Nityananda, while Nisargadatta Maharaj said “Let the dream unroll itself to its very end. You cannot help it. But you can look at the dream as a dream, refuse it the stamp of reality,” suggesting that one be attentive and aware of recognizing the nature of the false. Since the real timeless soul (the atman) can’t be simulated or manufactured, Osho said that, “By going deeper and deeper into the artificial, science helps religion, extending the limits of what can be manufactured and thereby defining what the Atman is not”. What will be left from the limits of the artifice can be no more than the real.

In the Buddhist tradition there’s the metaphor of our illusionary ego as a thorn we have in our skin, where the Buddhist teachings represent a second thorn, useful in extracting the first one. Then we can discard both. Even an illusion can break into the ultimate reality as the Zen story, “No Water, No Moon,” where the nun attained enlightenment when the old pail broke and there was no more water in the pail, no more moon reflected in the water and, suddenly no more mind also distorting reality.

So the technological way of disconnecting from reality could be like the moon reflected in the pail which, once we become aware of the unreality of it (perhaps through the supposed big electromagnetic storm forecast in the next few years, which could block every electronic equipment), can break the mind free from any other obscuration?

I don’t know what the plans of lila are – and maybe there aren’t even any – as when kids are playing, but since the nun was carrying water, not Twittering, chatting, browsing websites, trading online or updating her Facebook page, she was present in feeling her body and her mind was probably empty for most of the time, in a state more receptive to be filled by Truth. In many spiritual paths the students are suggested to make repetitive actions, as cleaning the rice as a way to strengthen our presence and attention, taming the wandering mind. Those tasks would bore us to death, while we prefer instead, paraphrasing Neil Postman, to be amused to death.

Technological salsa

Ivo Quartiroli — Tue, 06 May 2008 10:13:01 +0000

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Joseph Weizenbaum, who died recently, had documented in the 1970s in Computer Power and Human Reason (W. H. Freeman and Company, 1976) the natures of compulsive programmers, disinterested in their bodily needs and detached from the world around them.

Such figures are come across in a market economy country where advanced technologies are part of everyday life, and we don’t pay much attention to them.

The famous McLuhan phrase, “The medium is the message,” and before this the Taoist affirmations according to which the use of instruments transforms us into them had never seemed as self-evident to me as in Cuba some years ago.

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Joseph Weizenbaum in Il potere del computer e la ragione umana (Edizioni Gruppo Abele. Torino. 1987), da poco scomparso, aveva documentato già dagli anni ’70 la natura dei “programmatori coatti”, che dedicano la vita alla programmazione, disinteressati dei bisogni del corpo e distaccati dal mondo che li circonda.

Finché si incontrano tali figure in un centro di calcolo di una nazione con economia di mercato dove le tecnologie avanzate sono di casa ci si fa poco caso.

La famose frase “Il medium è il messaggio” di McLuhan e prima di questa, le affermazioni del taoismo secondo cui l’utilizzo degli strumenti ci trasforma negli stessi, non mi sono mai sembrate tanto evidenti quanto a Cuba alcuni anni fa.

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I was in a small town and used to connect to the Internet from one of the few places where some computers were available, which were almost as obsolete as their pre-revolution cars. A couple of technicians managed the computers and worked for the installation and maintenance of the network.

The Cubans are lively people on average, with a direct human contact, sensual people, related to the reality of the “here and now.” It was striking to see these technicians, on the contrary, detached, immersed in their own worlds, neglecting themselves, silent, with short “digital” answers. One could imagine that such people already had such personalities and consequently looked for compatible occupations. Without getting into the conundrum of whether the chicken or the egg came first, there is probably a mutual feedback between personality and life choices, but doubtlessly technology also shapes our psyches.

It is peculiar to realize how the modalities of thoughts received from a medium – which in this case was a computer and programming – can have more importance on the sociality and (partially) on a man’s personality than the collective conditioning received from his own society. It is equally surprising to see how the history and culture of a country which shapes the collective soul and the modalities of interaction between people get rewritten by daily contact with a tool which has existed for only a few years.

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Ero in una piccola città e mi connettevo a Internet da uno dei pochissimi luoghi dove si trovavano alcuni computer, obsoleti quasi quanto le loro automobili pre-rivoluzione. Vi erano un paio di tecnici che gestivano i computer e lavoravano per l’installazione e la manutenzione della rete.

I cubani sono mediamente persone vitali, dal contatto umano immediato, sensuali e connessi con la realtà del “qui e ora”. Faceva impressione vedere questi tecnici che erano al contrario distaccati, immersi nel loro mondo, trascurati, silenziosi, dalle risposte stringate e “digitali”. Ora, si potrebbe ipotizzare che tali persone già possedevano tale personalità e che di conseguenza si sono trovati un’occupazione coerente. Senza entrare nel problema dell’uovo e della gallina, probabilmente vi è un feedback reciproco tra personalità e scelte di vita, ma senza dubbio la tecnologia stessa ci forgia la psiche.

E’ singolare notare come le modalità di pensiero ricevute da un medium quale il computer e la programmazione, possano avere più peso nella socialità e in parte nella personalità di un individuo dei condizionamenti collettivi ricevuti dalla propria società. E’ altrettanto sorprendente vedere come la storia e la cultura di una nazione che danno forma all’anima collettiva e alle modalità di interazione tra le persone vengono riscritte dal contatto quotidiano con un mezzo che ha solo pochi anni di vita.

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Disembodying at broadband speed

Ivo Quartiroli — Tue, 22 Jan 2008 04:39:36 +0000

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Overcoming our identification with the body has traditionally been a mystical path, but that took place after having had a fully integrated body-mind-soul connection and having become aware of the full range of emotions and bodily sensations.

The split between body and mind in our society is still present and is further pushed away by long computer use where our bodies are involved in a minimal way, removing the connection in a premature manner.

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Tradizionalmente, il superare l’identificazione col corpo era parte di un percorso mistico, ma questo avveniva dopo aver integrato completamente la connessione tra il corpo, la mente e l’anima e dopo essersi resi consapevoli di tutta le sfera delle emozioni e delle sensazioni corporee.

La scissione tra mente e corpo è tutt’ora presente nella nostra società e viene ulteriormente ampliata da un uso prolungato del computer dove i corpi sono coinvolti in modo minimale, togliendo la connessione in modo prematuro.

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Our sense of personal identities is much connected to the presence of our body and its feedbacks. Mystics say that when a person becomes spiritually enlightened, the connection with his body/mind is not the same as before since the identification with our limited structures is being replaced by a wider embrace.

When a man falls madly in love with God, who can we call his father, his mother, his wife? He loves God so intensely that he is now crazy for him. He no longer has duties, he’s free from his debts. What is this love frenzy? When a man reaches this state, he is no longer aware of his body to which in normal times is so closely connected. Chaitanya Deva experienced this. He fell into the sea without realizing it was the sea. And many times he fell on the ground. He no longer knew hunger, nor thirst, nor he needed sleep. He had completely lost the awareness of his body (his body awareness). Shri Ramakrishna. L’enseignement de Ramakrishna, 1963.

McLuhan foresaw that the new technological man will lose touch with nature as a direct experience and consequently lose his balance wheel, where “with or without drugs, the mind tends to float free into the dangerous zone of abstractions”. He envisioned a man who sits in front of his “informational control room”, receiving information from any place of the world, blowing up his ego while at the same time becoming schizophrenic, having the body in one place and his mind scattered in many places. This will split the connection with his body and threaten his identity:

A discarnate man is as weightless as an astronaut but can move much faster. He loses his sense of private identity because electronic perceptions are not related to a place. Caught up in the hybrid energy released by video technologies, he will be presented with a chimerical “reality” that involves all his senses at a distanted pitch, a condition as addictive as any known drug. The mind, as figure, sinks back into ground and drifts somewhere between dream and fantasy. Dreams have some connection to the real world because they have a frame of actual time and place (usually in real time); fantasy has no such commitment. At that point, technology is out of control. Marshall McLuhan, Bruce R. Powers. The Global Village. Oxford University Press. New York, 1989

Joseph Weizenbaum portrayed, much before the advent of the Internet, the compulsive programmers as technicians that

work until they nearly drop, twenty, thirty hours at a time. Their food, if they arrange it, is brought to them: coffee, Cokes, sandwiches. If possible, they sleep on cots near the computer. But only for a few hours – then back to the console or the printouts. Their rumpled clothes, their unwashed and unshaven faces, and their uncombed hair all testify that they are oblivious to their bodies and to the world in which they move. Joseph Weizenbaum. Computer Power and Human Reason. W. H. Freeman and Company. 1976

Not longer feeling the connection with our bodies in front of the computer is an experience that is shared by the majority of people that use computers for more than little time. This exclusion has their roots in the splitting of body and mind of the judeo-christian culture and is mostly welcomed by men rather then women.

Brenda Laurel, a human-computer interaction expert was interviewed by Susie Bright for her book Sexual Reality (Cleis Press. San Francisco. 1992) and expresses her views on the body and gender orientation around it:

I know from fifteen years experience with computer guys that we have a class of people we call nerds who are radically uncomfortable with their bodies and their sexuality. I’ve had men tell me that one of the reasons they got into this business was to escape the social aspects of being a male in America – to escape women in particular. These are nice guys – not nasty, just shy, dweeby guys. When men talk about virtual reality, they often use phrases like “out-of-body experience” and “leaving the body”. These guys are not talking about out-of-body experiences in the way that some Eastern mystic or Peruvian Indian would. They are talking about it in the sense that if you slap a screen over your eyes you won’t have to see air pollution. That is a Western industrial let’s-dominate-the-earth kind of mentality. When women talk about VR they speak of taking the body with them into another world. The idea is to take these wonderful sense organs with us, not to leave our bodies humped over a keyboard while our brain zips off down some network. The body is not simply a container for this glorious intellect of ours.

Alexander Lowen in his book Joy lamented that through the years he has seen a continuous deterioration in his patients’ bodies in terms of integration and aliveness, where “the old-fashioned hysterical patient that Freud wrote about is almost never seen. The hysterical person couldn’t handle his feeling; the schizoid individual hasn’t many. Most people today are dissociated from their bodies and live largely in their heads or egos. We live in an egotistic or narcissistic culture where the body is seen as an object and the mind as the superior and controlling power.”

Women are naturally more connected to their bodies and could drive men back to their own bodies as well but this connection is being threatened for both sexes through overemphasizing technological life and through a fast stressed lifestyle that does not give space to the slower pace of the body.

The connection with our bodies starts with the connection we had with our mother’s body and how this bond was developed. The productive and competitive society forces earlier mother-infant/child separations through child day care. Babies don’t get enough breastfeeding nor the necessary bonding through prolonged body contact. It has been demonstrated how early separations effect the developing brain in a way that inclines to mental pathologies. If we don’t get enough body contact we can’t get a vibrant connection with our bodies either.

Again, technology in some way seems to drive us towards the spiritual plane, in this case towards the overcoming of the body, but only in a pale reflection, prematurely and in a non-integrated way, with the actual opposite result of inhibiting the soul evolution through bypassing the stage of connecting with our bodies fully.

This is the first generation where people give less and less body contact to children for lack of time and attitude. Furthermore we spend more and more time indoor, on school or office desks, in front of computers with our bodies involved in a minimal way. Apart from the obvious health problems regarding cardiovascular diseases and obesity, our soul lacks the connection with the body in an integrated way.

The body screams for attention but most of what is given in our society is fitness programs and aesthetic surgeries, one more time, technologies.

Programming and self de-programming

Ivo Quartiroli — Fri, 30 Nov 2007 16:04:39 +0000

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Software programming is a meta-activity. It deals with becoming aware of a process in its details, even though it is limited to the area regarding the information flow. Recursive algorithms are a good metaphor for self-reflection.

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Software programming is a meta-activity. It deals with becoming aware of a process in its details, even though it is limited to the area regarding the information flow. Programming is a bit like observing the processes in slow motion in order to re-create their sequence, like pulverizing a process in its informative details and analyzing them separately. It is basically a reductionist approach, even though in the object oriented programming and event-driven programming, every object is put in relation to other objects and procedures, in a more “connected” vision.

In the attempt of simulating reality in an ever more accurate and realistic way, there is the quest, only from the mind point of view, at going into the essence of reality, in the inaccessible Kant’s thing in itself. It is a never-ending research, similar to the investigation about the ultimate particles in atomic physics.

In computer graphics and in virtual worlds programming, any simulation, for example a human being movement, requires a careful observation ability, a first step towards meditation.

One of the effects of meditation is the slowing down of mental activity in order to be able to observe the spaces in between thoughts; in certain meditation techniques thoughts, emotions and states of awareness are analized and classified. An approach that could seem reductionist and rational. Even in programming, there is a slow motion analysis of procedures which will subsequently be automized, but the difference lays in the fact that in meditation, as opposed to programming, the observer and the object of observation are part of the same awareness and consequently there is a constant feedback between observer and object of observation which feed each other.

On a programming level this continuos cycle of feedback corresponds to recursive algorithms. Recursive algorithms are procedures that work with a feedback criteria, folding back on themselves and generating results through self-interaction. Recursive algorithms are a good metaphor for self-reflection. Programming a recursive algorithm is not the same as meditating but, somehow, the way of thinking involved when we arrange a recursive procedure brings in that slight vertigo sensation and that fascination we feel when we look into our own awareness.

When I read Gödel, Escher, Bach by Douglas Hofstadter I felt a mixture of amazement and unease in perceiving the Infinite in the recursive themes expressed. Even simply looking at a fractal can give a similar sensation. But doing recursion on ourselves is even more disorienting, as awareness itself is transformed by self-observation.

Another difference between programming and meditating is that the act of observing in programming is goal oriented, whilst meditation requires a careful observation without having any objective nor anything to change; this procedure is more difficult for the ego that always wants to change “what is”. The attitude of a programmer is oriented towards having the ability to foresee and control, therefore towards power, whilst in meditative observation there is letting go and accepting.

Some skilful programmers deal with meta-programming, as in they program systems which simplify or support the work of programmers themselves: programming language compilers, programming interfaces, automatic generators of programming codes and so on. It looks like there is a need to build a program that can substitute the programmer’s task, in the search for the “program of all programs” in an endless meta-programming, which at one point could turn to the programmers themselves and their thinking mechanisms.

Once reached a certain level in programming, it is almost inevitable that our attention cannot just focus on the understanding of the computer working mechanisms, but also to the inside of our own mind, investigating the way of thinking itself which allows us to deduce, discriminate, program, and associate things and events. The attention could turn towards exploring our inner motivation, behavioral schemes and psychological needs. Programmers could activate a reverse engineering process on themselves.

The introspective potentials of programming are not normally associated to programmers, mostly considered as technicians who are absorbed in their own world, detached from reality and from their bodies. And this is often true. Programmers are described by Joseph Weizenbaum as “compulsive”.

Wherever computer centers have become established, that is to say, in countless places in the United States, as well as in virtually all other industrial regions of the world, bright young men of disheveled appearance, often with sunken glowing eyes, can be seen sitting at computer consoles, their arms tensed and waiting to fire their fingers, already poised to strike, at the buttons and keys on which their attention seems to be as riveted as a gambler’s on the rolling dice. When not so transfixed, they often sit at tables strewn with computer printouts over which they pore like possessed students of a cabalistic text. They work until they nearly drop, twenty, thirty hours at a time. Their food, if they arrange it, is brought to them: coffee, Cokes, sandwiches. If possible, they sleep on cots near the computer. But only for a few hours – then back to the console or the printouts. Their rumpled clothes, their unwashed and unshaven faces, and their uncombed hair all testify that they are oblivious to their bodies and to the world in which they move. They exist, at least when so engaged, only through and for the computers. These are computer bums, compulsive programmers. They are an international phenomenon. [...]

The compulsive programmer is driven; there is little spontaneity in how be behaves; and he finds no pleasure in the fulfillment of his nominal wishes. He seeks reassurance from the computer, not pleasure. The closest parallel we can find to this sort of psychopathology is in the relentless, pleasureless drive for reassurance that characterizes the life of the compulsive gambler. [...] Psychoanalysts, beginning with Freud, saw megalomania and fantasies of onnipotence as principal ingredients in the psychic life of the compulsive gambler. [...] The compulsive programmer is convinced that life is nothing but a program running on an enormous computer, and that therefore every aspect of life can ultimately be explained in programming terms. [...]

Science can proceed only by simplifying reality. The first step in its process of simplification is abstraction. And abstraction means leaving out of account all those empirical data which do not fit the particular conceptual framework within which science at the moment happens to be working, which, in other words, are not illuminated by the light of the particular lamp under which science happens to be looking for keys. [...] The extreme phenomenon of the compulsive programmer teaches us that computers have the power to sustain megalomaniac fantasies. But that power of the computer is merely an extreme version of a power that is inherent in all self-validating systems of thought. Joseph Weizenbaum. Computer power and human reason. W. H. Freeman and Company, 1976.

Weizenbaum’s description reveals without a doubt some typical characteristics of programmers and warns us against the risk of considering reality as a logic sequence of events connected by a cause-effect mechanism and by binary/informative logics, trying to make the world fit into programming procedures. But, whoever has had the chance to deal with programmers knows that most of them are also fond of matters concerning states of conscience and inner search.

The abilities that come into play when programming, have something to do with the ability to be able to detach oneself from an aspect of reality in order to see it in objective terms and observe it in its essence. This detachment is a double-edged weapon. It can lead us to a schizoid detachment from reality and particularly from the self and at the same time, if the same observation skills were turned inwards, we would witness a de-programming of our own mental patterns.

Programmers often consider themes related to inner search on an intellectual knowledge level, or in terms of reaching certain states of mind as if it were a technical or biochemical procedure. However they also have the chance to observe the limits of computational thinking. The approach to different states of conscience and psychedelic experiences have often led to that visionary attitude that has ultimately stimulated the creation of new technologies. Both Steve Jobs and Bill Gates have admitted during interviews to have taken LSD or some sort of mind altering substances.

Substances can expand states of mind that, once the effect is finished, cannot be maintained. Too, using substances carries psychological and physical risks. Nonetheless, they can give a momentary glimpse of wider states of conscience, beyond the mind. Afterwards though the mind wants to incorporate the discoveries made in the field it can control. It invents technologies and models in order to recreate them, as it is not completely aware that it can only simulate a pale reflection of them. However, even a limited reflection of the real creates an inner echo that, as the sound of a distant drum, fascinates us and hypnotizes us.